" Its 2am, i can’t help but feel :(. sorry to even be posting such a thing, just thought that i should share. Its probably nothing much but my heart is driving my brain to think so pessimistically - What if the future is just an escape for us, from all of the stress, the hopes people pin on us, the amount of burden we carry and simply the need for us to “get a degree and a good job”. All the talks about a cafe, sure it sounds sweet as hell, but what if its just the promise of love which is usually accompanied by the pain of loss and then ultimately, the joy of redemption. What if you drop out of school and i get into a private university, would we all be stuck in a 9-6 jobs, dragging ourselves to work 5 times a week and slowly turning in people we said we never wanted to be, people that fight hard to impress bosses and may go by underhand means maybe? people that value money more than family, people that have a lousy-sense of well-being. What if we are cooped up in a HDB flat paying for interest and repaying the loan for the flat our entire lives. What if life is just a struggle for us and we don’t turn into the people we want to be. Will we remain true to ourselves? Will be remain spiritually strong? will be remain ethical and will we still have priorities that really matter?What if what if & what if. 10 years from now, Will we still remember the talks we had as a teenage couple, the goals and dreams we always had as a kid and will the love still remain, this beautiful? i really don’t want to lose anything i have now. One exam, many implications which results in secondary implications and spillovers. So much to lose now. I love you, goodnight. "
- darren on 24/2/2012