I’m happy that we can do this so often. Best thing ever and time seems to flyyyyyyy so fast :( got to cut down on these when exams are nearing. Exams are really always in the way aren’t they.
There’s always a time for playing, relaxing and chilling but don’t forget that there’s also time to be set aside for work. No one likes to work! If we enjoy it then its not work anymore. But please set your priorities right. Since stepping into your life and setting many things straight and helping you paint a bigger picture, there are still many things in this harsh reality that you are not seeing yet. Putting it bluntly, you’re still in your own world and bubble where you think that a lot of things are perfect or that life is easy. Nothing comes easy! With the increased standards of living, and the debt crisis, we might really be thrown into a recession. Thats the cold truth. Every man for himself. Sometimes i might be pushing you too much or i might be appear to be serious all the way, but i really want the best for us. Being the perfectionist i am, i don’t wanna settle for second for anything thats about to come our way. And settling for second best is knowing what you can achieve but you’re simply not achieving it. Thats the case for you and me as well. I really want to do well in many many many aspects, but it’s not always easy. Let’s work hard together shall we?
Whenever i try so hard to push you to do your work, it’d be great if you could just sit down, focus, put your devices away and get your work done. I know its hard and I don’t expect quality for a start. But i’ll be really glad i know you got work done and thats a habit thats about to be built. For today, to be honest, i think we both did a pretty bad job with time management and planning. In fact, i’m more pissed with myself rather than you. I told myself how we will get at least 1 and a half hours of work done when i go up to your place. We ended up burning all of it away. Time is precious and i don’t want all of it to just slip us by. We cannot rewind time and i really don’t wish to waste all of it, or any of it. And the fact that you promised me you’ll do work when you get back and blah blah blah you know how i don’t really care about what people say and what they say they will do. Talk is cheap and i don’t want to be harsh here but i think you’re really not practicing what you preach and that is……..lets just say its unacceptable and i’m really disappointed. You talking to Theodore is perfectly alright but not when work is to be done! :( You can call him after you finish up your work and chores! Maybe for now, exams still seems like ages away and you still have time to catch up with an old schoolmate, but all this time could be better spent. Prioritize my dear Cheryl, prioritize. I don’t want to rant anymore but what i don’t want more is how important i see such matters but it means simply nothing to you. I don’t want to make considerations or put so much effort into things like that, and at the end of day, turns to dust cos it simply doesn’t mean anything to you. Sometimes I wonder if it’s really good this way, like, when did I ever give so much considerations, and is it really worth it? Remember how i always stressed how i want to make a positive impact on your life. I guess this is a good way, or something that needs to be done. But if it all turns into nothing, I won’t think it’s my loss, at least I gave it my best. But hey babe don’t give me a reason to stop all this and feel that way okay? :D
Remember all that drive to make your family proud and happy! Dont lose it and I really hope to see you graduate and go on to do something far greater with your life, something fulfilling and something you’re passionate about. What that is still remains a mystery as of now but to achieve that you will definitely need a spirit of excellence to start with, and the best time to start is now my dear. Today was disappointing…but i’m still thankful for our bed talks. :) Sorry if I sounded harsh, i really mean well. I don’t have to go through the trouble of typing this if you didn’t mean so much. I love you and lets really work for a brighter future shall we? I love you alot alot alot and i want the best for my loved ones :)
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- darren on 6/1/2012