The best time to realise what you have is while you have it.
Taking this opportunity to pen down some thoughts while they are still fresh in my mind.
Dwight and I just came back from our virgin diving trip (more to come!) from Redang, Malaysia. Clearest water I've ever seen. Best part? Being there with my best friend, the other half.
And he loves the sea. Seeing how much he enjoyed this trip warms my heart so much that even though the underwater world intimidates me, knowing that as long as he is right beside me dismissed every fear I had. Seven dives! I never would have imagined.
Dwight held my hand throughout most part of the dives and without him tugging, the current would have possibly swept me away. Every part of me screamed when I felt that I wasn't moving every stroke or kick I made. The sudden cold in one part of the water when we swam from an area to another sends chill right to my bones. As much as it was challenging, pulling me while trying to maintain buoyancy, Dwight never failed to make sure I was okay and always grabbed me close.
That heartache though! It's these things so subtle yet significant enough to make my heart flutter once more. And those words you muttered that night.. about some plans a few years from now; I will never forget them even if forgetful was my first name.
One and a half years now. You've only made me more sure about you, about us. About what we have, about what we are going to be.
I am earnestly waiting for the day where our lives take one more step further; into parenthood. It's my wildest dream that I will be blessed with a family who grows together, just like how your family is. Up to this day I adored how your family connects with each other, something that nobody can come between. That's how I envisioned my own.
And you've showed me that it is possible, and that I'm going to have my wildest dream come true if all is well until then. It will be well, we assure ourselves!
I hope that you continue growing and expanding your horizons at work, or your own personal goals. I wish I can be a part of them all, if you allow me to. I know I don't really have a plan at my own career, but it is also in my wildest dream that I can be appreciated in a way where a spouse supports her military-significant-other in terms of keeping the house together, being there for the kids and our families at the times where your duty calls and you cannot be there. That's the kind of commitment I'm willing and would lovingly partake as much as the ladies my age trying to carve out their promising career paths. That just isn't me.
I want to just be your pillar of strength, be someone whom you seek solace, when things seem to get tough. You never once cried in front of me or asked for a shoulder to lean on, other than the one time in Vietnam, if you remember. Well, you covered your face so I didn't even get to see your teary eye.
I want to be someone useful to you in those terms. And I can only wish that will be enough for you.
You're my one-life stand.