It really has been draining, the whole time I was in school for Final Year Project, juggling this and that, at home, with myself, my thoughts, my emotions.... and I guess you were affected too in fact, very much more than it affects me.
It also drains me to see that we're slowly...plunging down towards where we never wanted our own r/s to be in, though it may be my thoughts and assumptions about many things that brought us to where we are. I don't even want to be myself anymore...
I don't know how to feel properly. What's proper? I should be myself and whatever I'm feeling, is whatever I feel fullstop but I shouldn't because it hurts people around me. I think? Or I don't know how to put it across in a way which was what I really meant so that the recipient SEES the reason for my actions.
#helpless